Consuming Gloomy Darkness

Recently, I read an article about how research shows that positive thinking leads to better health.  It explains that the research concluded that positive thinking may provide increased life span, lower rates of depression, lower levels of distress and pain, reduced risk of death from cancer and better coping skills during hardship and times of anxiety or stress to name a few.  The part that caught my eye was the reduced risk of death from cancer.  

During my cancer journey, laughter was one of my staples in staying positive and maintaining a strong mindset during the most difficult times.  During the times that the chemo treatment caused me to experience side effects such as depression in addition to the pain from the cancer, it was difficult for me to stay positive.  I am the first to admit that in the mist of my cancer battle, I did not handle the very harsh times of deep sadness and depression very well.  During these moments, I knew that I needed to get back into a positive headspace and filter out all the negative thoughts, but that was a very difficult task to do.  It was when I was most vulnerable that I believe God sent some of my family and friends to try to cheer me up by watching comedy movies, making jokes or playing board games to free my mind from my very dark and negative thoughts of defeat.  Most of the time mediation would help me to counteract the side effects of the chemo treatment, but there were other times that the side effects were so intense that I needed additional reinforcements to make it through these patches of all consuming gloomy darkness.

In my experience, life has given me several extremely difficult storms that I have had to overcome, but I have learned that God does not give you more than you can handle. I must admit that sometimes knowing about God and believing in God has been a very difficult challenge due to the storms in my life, but somehow deep in my heart I felt that somehow God will always bring us out of the storm.  For me, having faith even in the darkest hours gives me the courage and strength to have a positive mindset which I pray every day will give me many years of life.


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  1. March 10, 2022 at 9:47 pm

    Hi, thanks for visiting my blog….I’ve started reading your journey….being positive helps, but we need the people in our lives to cheer and love us as are right that God sends them to us to show us His love…sometimes in our anguish, we may be nasty and emotional and these ‘saints’ must try to still show their love and compassion…God bless you in all your moments…a close relative of mine just passed from Cancer, hence your blog has touched me…..have a good day today and everyday 😀

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    • March 11, 2022 at 11:05 am

      Hi thank you so much for all your kind words of support. I agree with you 100%. I know that without God & the help of the people in my life, I may not be here today. You are correct, our internal anguish at times causes us not to be the best version of ourselves, which is why I’m extremely grateful for their unconditional love and support. I am so sorry to know of your close relative passing due to cancer. My sincerest condolences, may the sorrow you feel in your heart lighten by God’s love & the love of those that surround you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your loved ones during these difficult moments. Take care and God Bless! 🙏😊

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  2. March 12, 2022 at 4:42 pm

    Okay, Kiddo. See you in and out on WP but no new posts. You’re doing well I hope. Here’s a challenge – tell us something that’s happened for you recently that strike you miraculous – a miracle in mortal form. Or better yet, tell how as you work for yourself, you took time to help another who was not, until you stopped to help them, doing well. If not answering the silly challenge, still know we’re pulling for you. Watching and hoping.

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    • March 13, 2022 at 12:06 pm

      Thank you for your good wishes and for reading my stories of being a cancer survivor.

      As for the challenge, well I recently helped an acquaintance find employment after almost depleting their savings. I looked at their resume and revised to fit job requirements and ATS (applicant tracking system) used by many employers nowadays. After this revision they were called for job interviews and received more than one offer because they had the experience.

      Thank you for your challenge, wishing you all the best today and everyday. 👍 🙏🙂

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      • March 13, 2022 at 2:49 pm

        Good job and good job. In helping your acquaintance, and in poking-out the story.

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  3. KK
    March 20, 2022 at 12:48 pm

    I appreciate your courage and conviction. God bless you 🙏

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    • March 20, 2022 at 1:03 pm

      Thank you very much for your kind encouragement words of support and blessings. It really mean a lot. Many blessings for you as well. 🙏🙏❤👍👍🤗🤗

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      • KK
        March 20, 2022 at 1:31 pm

        You’re more than welcome! Stay blessed, always 🙏💐💖

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  4. March 25, 2022 at 4:53 am

    Wow! A deep and deeply moving post – and all so true. The Bible instructs us to center our thoughts on good and positive things and says that laughter is good medicine. You are incredibly courageous. May Jesus bless and heal you totally and calm the storm for you. Amen,

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    • March 25, 2022 at 8:07 am

      Thank you so much for your kind encouraging words of support and blessings. I really appreciate it . Many blessings to you well. Have a wonderful day! 🙏🙏❤🤗😀

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