The Right Path

A few weeks ago, I was feeling an overwhelming amount of stress due to multiple projects and short deadlines at work.  My body was extremelyconsumed by stress and anxiety that consequently it led to me not feeling well.  I started feeling ill with cold-like symptoms that included sore throat, low-grade fever, congestion, body aches, chills and tiredness.  It felt like I had no other choice, I had to be out of work to rest, take some medication and get better.  During these days, I realized that instead of facing my tremendous grief and pain over the loss of my father I was actually avoiding it by becoming a workaholic. My thoughts were inundated and occupied with work that there was no room for anything else.  Granted, this was not the first time, I had done this, when my mom passed away, I also found myself emerged into my work.  It is like a coping mechanism that I thought I had overcome, but apparently, I had not.  Right after my father’s passing, I tried to take time to deal with the pain and grief, I tried to take care of myself and put myself first.  I took some time off from work and had a long pause from blogging, but very slowly without noticing I found myself completely emerged into my work again.  It seems to be a habit that unfortunately, I can’t break free from but at least, this time I realized it, even if this realization came when I was lying in bed very sick.  I tried to take deep breaths, as best I could, being extremely congested this was very difficult and painful to do therefore, I decided that I was not going to worry about work and was going to stop making it my top priority.  I need to constantly remind myself that I should be my top priority and that I need to be living my best life every day.  Don’t forget that work is just a means to earn money to meet our finical needs, but it is not our life.  Of course, along with earning money I do find the work that I do meaningful, but my job is not my life and it does not define me.  At the end of my life, I am not going to think back and remember all the different jobs I had.  I think that I am going to think back on my memories that made me laugh, cry and how I lived my life.  I will also look back at the precious moments that I have lived with my family like the wonderful loving memories that I have of my mom and dad.  At times, I get off track and have to remind myself of what is important.  I have re-focus and remember to enjoy my journey in life because I have been so blessed to have been given an opportunity to still be alive and enjoy the most precious gift, Life.  I am extremely blessed and thankful that God reminds me of the right path, even when I get derailed.  God always shows up in our lives and directs us in the right path. 

#Blessed