Fighting Yourself

During the year that I had cancer, I was a bad liar. I would tell my family and friends that I was okay and fighting like a warrior.  There was one person who was also my main caregiver that called me out on my lie, my mom.  She said I see the pain in your eyes and not that serene place you are trying to paint for everyone.  Your eyes are the gateway to your soul and I can tell that you are in so much pain physically and emotionally.  She told me that I was a strong warrior at battle, but to remember that I was not alone.  I was surrounded by loved ones and most importantly God was taking care of me during this huge trial in my life.  After this conversation, I was finally able to open up about the tremendous physical pain and ailments that I…