Fear of the Unknown

Through the years I have come to the realization that not everyone will comprehend someone else’s cancer journey and that is alright. I mean I don’t think I really understood it myself until I lived through it.  Of course, anyone can form conclusions and have opinions on the matter but like most things in life we don’t fully comprehend the magnitude of something until we have experienced it on our own. Which is why during my cancer journey, when I started the treatment in an out-of-town city and they scheduled me as an outpatient for the 2nd round of chemo the oncologist from my home town was communicating with the out-of-town oncologists. After reviewing my progress, they both came to an agreement and a decision was reached that I had made enough progress, meaning that my tumor was shrinking (Thank God). Therefore, it was best to change the administration of my chemo regime to prevent heart disease.  This was based on the fact that one of the chemo cocktails that was being administered to me was strong enough to help shrink the tumor but it was also very dangerous to my heart. Honestly, I feel very blessed that the two-oncologist communicated and made adjustments to the course of treatment that allowed me to shift in category from critical (dying) to stable with possibility of beating cancer.  As my oncologist discussed these changes and the reasoning behind it, I agreed to the changes without hesitation.  For the first time since I had started my cancer journey, this actually made sense to me. I felt that this was the best for me. However, when I informed some of my family and friends, everyone had a different say in the matter.  Their opinions ranged from “that is good that these changes are happening “to “are you kidding! do you want to die?!”  Some thought that I should continue my treatment out of town because in their opinion “they are a bigger city with more resources, better technology, and better doctors.” All I know is that in my heart I felt that God had guided me to do what was right for me at that time.

Now thinking back on the whole experience, I think that my motto during those times was as follows: You are here to live your life, not to make everyone understand your every decision. I appreciated everyone for their heartfelt feedback and thoughts around the subject, but I needed to do what I felt was best for me. After all this was my cancer journey and the decisions, I make will have a direct impact on the course of my life. Although, I did not know if I was making the right decision, I had faith in God that I was going to make the best decisions to be able to beat cancer and get a second chance to live. Remember to always live your best life for you! It’s your life journey after all.


  One thought on “Fear of the Unknown

  1. July 14, 2022 at 1:43 pm

    It is your journey . Taking responsibility is something you did with God’s help. Being courageous is so much your story. Glad for your shares. Hugs and prayers as well as my respect. Sandy

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    • July 14, 2022 at 2:24 pm

      Awwww thank you Sandy so much for your continued support and encouragement. I truly appreciate your friendship and wise kind words always. Lots of hugs, blessings and prayers for you as well. Hope you have a blessed day. 🙏🙏🙏🙏❤❤🤗🤗🤗

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  2. July 20, 2022 at 4:22 pm

    This part 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽 You are here to live your life, not to make everyone understand your every decision.

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    • July 20, 2022 at 6:25 pm


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  3. July 22, 2022 at 1:38 pm

    Beautiful. Yes, only we must live the best life we can for us and only we can make that decision – with Father God’s guidance, of course. May He bless you richly in all things and heal you completely.

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    • July 22, 2022 at 2:30 pm

      Hi Stephanie thank you so much for your continuous support in reading & liking my blog as well as your kind words of support, encouragement and blessings. I wholeheartedly appreciate them. May God’s blessing be with you always. 🙏🙏🙏❤❤❤🤗🤗🤗

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      • July 22, 2022 at 3:15 pm

        And thank you for your ntinuous support and encouragement – and most of all asking for God’s blessings. You are a star!

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  4. KK
    July 24, 2022 at 8:44 am

    Salute to your courage and conviction!

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    • July 25, 2022 at 8:23 am

      Hi KK thank you so much for your continuous support in reading, liking and commenting on my blog. I am really grateful for your kind supportive and encouraging words. Have a wonderful day!👍💗🤗

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      • KK
        July 25, 2022 at 8:57 am

        You’re more than welcome 😊💖

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  5. August 4, 2022 at 11:49 am

    Well, I was going to see who the person was who visited my blog and liked so many of my photos and thank them. I was blown away by your blog of courage and your attitude towards your illness. I lost my best friend and my parents and my brother to cancer. I salute your strength. And thank you for all your likes. Going to read the other posts listed. Thank you and 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🥰

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    • August 4, 2022 at 2:16 pm

      Hi stockdalewolfe I was mesmerized by the beauty of everyday life from other places and other countries captured in your photos. So many places and countries that I may have never seen if it had not been for your photos which is why I liked so many of them. I still need to go back and like more of them.

      I am so sorry to learn of the loss of your best friend, parents and brother to cancer. I can understand how difficult it is to go through so much loss in your life. You are very brave.

      Welcome to my blog & thank so much you for your kind words of encouragement & support. I really appreciate it. Thanks again 🙏🙏🥰💗

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      • August 4, 2022 at 4:25 pm

        Thank you for appreciating my pictures. It gives me a thrill to take them I am partial to India for many reasons but these pictures are taken in New York City. There is a touring facility that offers online tours in real time all over the world. I think you would like it. A tour guide walks through the streets and I take hundreds of photos. They go 24chours a day, you leave a tip and you can chat withe the tour guide and take photos with the computer. The name is HeyGo.com. I think you’d enjoy it.😊😊🙏🏽🙏🏽

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      • August 4, 2022 at 8:31 pm

        Wow I had no idea that existed. Thank you so much for letting me know. I am very excited and looking forward to that experience. 👍👍👍🙏🙏🙏🙌🙌🤗🤗

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  6. August 4, 2022 at 4:26 pm

    Sorry for all the typos.

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    • August 4, 2022 at 8:31 pm

      No worries it happens to me all the time 🤗🤗👍👍

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