Through the years I have come to the realization that not everyone will comprehend someone else’s cancer journey and that is alright. I mean I don’t think I really understood it myself until I lived through it. Of course, anyone can form conclusions and have opinions on the matter but like most things in life we don’t fully comprehend the magnitude of something until we have experienced it on our own. Which is why during my cancer journey, when I started the treatment in an out-of-town city and they scheduled me as an outpatient for the 2nd round of chemo the oncologist from my home town was communicating with the out-of-town oncologists. After reviewing my progress, they both came to an agreement and a decision was reached that I had made enough progress, meaning that my tumor was shrinking (Thank God). Therefore, it was best to change the administration of my chemo regime to prevent heart disease. This was based on the fact that one of the chemo cocktails that was being administered to me was strong enough to help shrink the tumor but it was also very dangerous to my heart. Honestly, I feel very blessed that the two-oncologist communicated and made adjustments to the course of treatment that allowed me to shift in category from critical (dying) to stable with possibility of beating cancer. As my oncologist discussed these changes and the reasoning behind it, I agreed to the changes without hesitation. For the first time since I had started my cancer journey, this actually made sense to me. I felt that this was the best for me. However, when I informed some of my family and friends, everyone had a different say in the matter. Their opinions ranged from “that is good that these changes are happening “to “are you kidding! do you want to die?!” Some thought that I should continue my treatment out of town because in their opinion “they are a bigger city with more resources, better technology, and better doctors.” All I know is that in my heart I felt that God had guided me to do what was right for me at that time.
Now thinking back on the whole experience, I think that my motto during those times was as follows: You are here to live your life, not to make everyone understand your every decision. I appreciated everyone for their heartfelt feedback and thoughts around the subject, but I needed to do what I felt was best for me. After all this was my cancer journey and the decisions, I make will have a direct impact on the course of my life. Although, I did not know if I was making the right decision, I had faith in God that I was going to make the best decisions to be able to beat cancer and get a second chance to live. Remember to always live your best life for you! It’s your life journey after all.