Having been diagnosed with cancer in my twenties, I was faced with the harsh reality that death is an inventible consequence of being alive. Ever since one of my relatives passed away when I was very young, I learned that death was going to happen to all of us one day. I mean in my mind I saw it as if we are all in the “checkout line “of life just waiting our turn to exit our life and enter death’s doorstep. Since we don’t know when our day will come, we cannot move or step out of the checkout line of life. While I understood that we all must leave this world behind one day, I was not ready to go to the front of the “checkout line” of life. Despite how grim the medical reports appeared to be I felt deep in my core with every fiber of my being, that my life would not end just yet. With God by my side all the way I was going to fight for my life with all my might while praying for a miracle. Plus, I asked for reinforcement from many others to pray for me as well.
Now as a cancer survivor, I continue to learn about the statistics of getting other types of cancers and illnesses due to the aggressive chemo and radiation treatment that I received, but I don’t focus on those details. I try to focus on the positive which is that I am alive today and try to make the most of every moment because evert moment counts. I will not lie, some days are extremely difficult with increased excruciating pains (long-life side effect), however this is an indication that I am still alive and able to withstand/overcome the horrible days for better days. My life is not perfect by any means; therefore, I try to make priorities of spending quality time with loved ones, show kindness to everyone, use my blessingsto help others and cherish everyday moments. On the other hand, I am still working on plans/goals(dreams) that I have yet to accomplish. Although, some of my dreams are still a work in progress, I feel that when the time is right, God will help me see my dreams become a reality.
I know God blessed me with the miracle of another chance to live my life and I am trying to live each day to the fullest without regrets. That way hopefully I will be able to be ready when my time comes, and I am next on the checkout line of life.