As a cancer survivor, this past year has been difficult as I have continued to take care of myself against covid while maintaining my sanity. This timeframe has been extremely tiring physically and mentally due to all the information available through the numerous social media outlets. I have felt many of my triggers from when I was undergoing treatment come to the forefront during these trying times, that we all are facing. I have felt all sorts of conflicting emotions and countless negative thoughts have filled my head, but in reality, there is nothing I can do except put myself in God’s hands and trust God to keep me safe.
With everything moving in all different directions I feel as if we are all in the same unstable airplane, at certain times things start to shift in a stable direction and then suddenly out of nowhere we get turbulence and take a nose-dive down in terms of the positive cases within our communities. Right now, in my area, things are looking better again which is a relief. Through the course of this pandemic, I have continued my daily life which has required me to take extra precautions to continue to stay healthy and strong. Honestly the daily routine is so stringent that at times, I just feel extremely overwhelmed exhausted and ready to throw in the towel. During these difficult trying times, is when I find myself relying 100% on God via prayer. I constantly pray asking HIM for courage, strength, support and most importantly energy to keep moving forward. As human beings we tend to always feel like we need to carry the weight of the world on our shoulders and sometimes the weight becomes unbearable for us to handle. It’s during these times that we can’t give up, we can’t give in, we can’t throw in the towel. We must realize that we don’t have to carry all the weight alone.