Before my cancer diagnosis my life was very different. I always had a busy schedule that consumed and took over my daily life. It was as if my life was not my own, I lived each day by the routine of daily tasks in order to accomplish my goals. When I accomplished one of my goals, I did not experience a feeling of fulfillment. Honestly, I was happy for a brief moment due to my success but then the happiness would fade away and I was left thinking of what was the next thing to accomplish in my long list of goals. I did not take the time to truly appreciate my successes or even recognize my blessings. I later realized that pre-cancer diagnosis I was not living my life, I was just existing in it.
Believe it or not, being diagnosed with cancer and almost dying because of it was a blessing in disguise. Now being a cancer survivor, I remind myself of how precious life is and not to take the next day for granted. My life was turned upside down and I had to face the possibility that my life could end from one day to the next. My cancer battle BOLDLY reminded me of how precious life is and how we should enjoy every moment for the next moment is not guaranteed. Of course, old habits are hard to get rid of. Even today, I still have my list of goals and aspirations, but now when I find myself being too caught up in the daily tasks, I remind myself of how precious life is and regain my focus of living in the now. Yes, I plan and work towards future goals but I also enjoy living in the moment. I often think to myself, what if I were to die tomorrow, is stressing out over the smallest little things or the things that are out of my control really worth it? The answer is always no. With God in my heart and by my side I have learned that there is always a purpose for everything and that everything has a solution.
Nowadays, I try to enjoy each moment, the big things and the small things. Certain days are extraordinary, while others are just ordinary and some are extremely tough. Regardless of the how my day is, I try very hard to focus on my blessings and the good things in my life and try find joy in the simplest of things. We must always enjoy each day, even the tough ones because the future is not guaranteed. We may be here one minute and gone the next.