After I received my cancer diagnosis, and I was in a hospital bed several people that I had never met went to visit me for different reasons. Two ladies that visited with me went over numerous forms and paperwork. One of the forms included was information on creating a last will and testament. When I saw this document, I immediately withdrew from the conversation. At this moment in my life, in my mind filling out this document my last will and testament meant that I was guaranteed my death. My inner thoughts were so intense screaming to me “if you make a last will and testament, it is because you are forfeiting, resigning and accepting defeat.” I had barely started to process what was happening to me. I had just begun to mentally prepare myself to fight the biggest fight of my life. My mind didn’t have room to even phantom the idea of what would need to happen if I die from this illness. Nope, death was not an option. I firmly decided that I was not going make a last will and testament. I was not going to have a legal declaration of what to do with my assets after death. They were talking to the wrong girl. I am a warrior and I will never give up fighting to live. With God by my side all things are possible.
Back then, these were my thoughts, my mindset was that if a last will and testament was actualized then it would somehow make it a reality that I would die at that moment in time. It was like if I had a last will and testament, it would bring bad luck and cause a bad outcome. My mindset changed from the time of facing death to now, where I understand the importance of having a will and testament. I have accepted the fact that death is a consequence of life and unfortunately all things must come to an end one day. I know that this will happen and having my affairs in order is what is best.