After I received my cancer diagnosis, and I was in a hospital bed several people that I had never met went to visit me for different reasons.  Two ladies that visited with me went over numerous forms and paperwork.  One of the forms included was information on creating a last will and testament.  When I saw this document, I immediately withdrew from the conversation.  At this moment in my life, in my mind filling out this document my last will and testament meant that I was guaranteed my death.  My inner thoughts were so intense screaming to me “if you make a last will and testament, it is because you are forfeiting, resigning and accepting defeat.”  I had barely started to process what was happening to me. I had just begun to mentally prepare myself to fight the biggest fight of my life. My mind didn’t have room to even phantom the idea of what would need to happen if I die from this illness.  Nope, death was not an option.  I firmly decided that I was not going make a last will and testament. I was not going to have a legal declaration of what to do with my assets after death.  They were talking to the wrong girl. I am a warrior and I will never give up fighting to live. With God by my side all things are possible.

Back then, these were my thoughts, my mindset was that if a last will and testament was actualized then it would somehow make it a reality that I would die at that moment in time.  It was like if I had a last will and testament, it would bring bad luck and cause a bad outcome.  My mindset changed from the time of facing death to now, where I understand the importance of having a will and testament.  I have accepted the fact that death is a consequence of life and unfortunately all things must come to an end one day. I know that this will happen and having my affairs in order is what is best.  


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  1. May 19, 2022 at 3:28 pm

    I completely agree with you way of thinking….

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    • May 21, 2022 at 10:23 am

      Thank you so much for your kind words of support. I really appreciate it. 👍👍👍

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  2. May 20, 2022 at 3:12 am

    Hi Kelly How daunting to be asked to make a will at the moment you needed all your focus on getting well. That was tough. Yes I guess we do have to leave things “neat and tidy” a family way of saying things. Have a beautiful day. Love and prayers.

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    • May 21, 2022 at 10:27 am

      Hi my dear friend Sandy. Thank you for commenting. It really does mean a lot. Your kind words of wisdom, support and encouragement always uplift my spirit and bring me so much joy and inspiration. Hope you have a blessed day 🙏🙏❤👍👍🥰🤗👌

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  3. May 21, 2022 at 1:56 pm

    Praying for you

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    • May 26, 2022 at 7:41 am

      Hi thank you so much for your support and prayers. I wish you many blessings 🙏🙏

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