Closed Doors

During my cancer battle, I looked forward to the day when I would be cancer-free. I recall that when I was getting closer to finishing my chemo treatment plan, meaning my last chemo session, I was overjoyed with anticipation for the next phase in my life.  I was eager with anticipationsince it had been an extremely long hard and difficult road. I was so focused on the outcome and being positive, that I was not at prepared tohear the devasting gut wrenching news once again that I still had cancer and would undergo more testing for a new course of action to be decided on.  My mind could not accept or comprehend what was being said and I felt extremely frustrated and angry over the whole situation.  My thoughts started racing thinking “Why was God closing the door on me? Did I not deserve to be cancer free?  I could not understand why this was happening to me, was this the end of my life?  It was all too overwhelming because I did not know what the future held for me, was the door to my life shut permanently or would the door to be cancer free open at a later time?”  I had so many unanswered questions. Fortunately, my mom understood my frustration and told me that God is in control of all doors, to calm down and have faith knowing God is with us at all times.  She said “Let go of your frustration, anger, and disappointment and simply believe that God will open the right door at the right time.  Right now, you may not see a way out or feel that you can withstand more turmoil, but you are stronger than you think and will be able to overcome it.  In a blink of an eye, circumstances can change in your favor and this door of anguish will close and a new door of hope to a bright future will open. So, take a deep breath and wait to step on through the door when it opens to start a new chapter in your life.”   These words of wisdom shared by my mother that helped me in the toughest moments of my cancer battle have continued to help me in my everyday life now as a cancer survivor.  When life gets too overwhelming as it often does, I remember my mom’s words and know that with God, everything will be alright.

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