During my cancer battle, I experienced great days, good days and okay days. Now, having overcome cancer, it would be nice to say that it was all smooth sailing, but that was not my reality. As my cancer battle took longer than expected and my body continued to take a beating, my frame of mind would weaken which resulted in some of my worse and worst days. Chemo was a treatment that I thought I was prepared for but nothing can prepare you for how much worse it can get with each additional treatment. As I felt my body physically weaken to the point of actually feeling and thinking my life was coming to an end, I felt that I was dying. I can not really put it in to words, but I felt my body shutting down which triggered my mind to feel the same. It was the worst feeling in the world. I could not understand, what was happening to me but there it was inside me, a sense of impending doom telling me it that my life was over. My mind and body were made up this was the end. There was no other choice. No matter how many prayers I did and how much I lean on God my inner thoughts told me that was the end of the road for me. Things kept getting worse until one day I saw the look of pain and terror in my mother’s eyes and her asking, begging, pleading with me to fight that shook me to my core. It hit me like a bolt of lightning causing a shift in me, it reached deep down into my heart and soul. I couldn’t stand to see my mother in that much anguish and pain. She had always been my rock and now I felt her disintegrating right before my eyes. I had to dowhatever it took to make her feel better again. I didn’t care what happened to me but I could not stand causing my mother extreme anguish and pain. My heart and soul compelled my body and mind me to fight to live with all my might. I implored God to give me the strength to do whatever it took to stay alive. For my mom I fought to come back to life and now even though she is no longer with me I fight every day to keep living and loving life in her honor.
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Cancer: The Upside 
Kelly!! This is such a powerful piece!! I am sure it would help lots of people… maybe one day you might put your writings together in a book for people battling cancer though in the above piece it seems like you wouldn’t be able to read. Your unselfish and fierce love for your mother really seemed to have been what pulled you through along with your connection to God. I am so terribly sorry you had to go through this. I know we will all have to face the end but hopefully without all the pain you felt at the point you are describing. Much love ❤️ for you, Kelly. Love and prayer pulled you through, thanks be to God❣️❣️❣️ May God keep you safe. Love, Ellen 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽😔❣️❣️❣️🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
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Wow! Thank you so much Ellen for all your support, love and understanding. I don’t have words to express the profound gratitude I have for your friendship. It was very hard to write this blog as tears rolled down my face. With every word I wrote I felt transported back to that point in my life. It was very painful to describe in detail the events that happened. Just like then the love for my mom and with God’s strength I was able to get it written down. I feel honored that you feel my blog could be turned into a book.
May God bless you and your husband always 🙏🙏🙏♥️♥️🤗🤗
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Kelly, dear, I definitely think it could be turned into a book. I was fighting back tears just reading it, a second and third time. I don’t know how sales would be, am not a business woman so am limited but I know powerful writing when I see it. Definitely it would make a powerful and inspiring book!! You were blessed with what sounds like a wonderful mother. And your faith in God. I am just sorry you had to go through all you went through. You are a pretty special person. Thanks for the blessing for my husband and me. You have an “in” with God so it is precious to me. Lots of love and continued prayers from me, Ellen🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❣️❣️❣️😔❣️❣️❣️🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
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Keep fighting! Thank you for sharing your story
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