Mysterious Change

After my first chemo treatment, I was discharged from the hospital and given an appointment at a cancer treatment center for my second chemo round.  My appointment was scheduled in two weeks therefore, allowing my body enough time to physically recover in order to travel out of town for my next treatment.  I tried to mentally prepare myself for this next round, knowing that even though initially I might feel okay, the harsh side effects would hit me hard all at once.  Well, at least, this was my theory since I had only undergone one treatment it was all based upon this one experience. 

After the initial process, I was taken to the chemo treatment luxury area where I picked where to sit to take my chemo.  The nurse looked at my chart and let me know he was going to place a needle through my portacath in order to administer the chemo.  I started the 2nd round, here we go, I thought to myself hopefully things go better than the first time, fingers crossed.  I started to feel a bit warm as I was receiving the treatment, and the nurse came over and said I need to take your temperature. My temperature was starting to rise but it was still well within range to continue treatment.  A few minutes later, the nurse came back to check on me and take my temperature again. My temperature had risen slightly more but still within range.  He told me that he was going to have to speak to my doctor because if my temperature continued to rise, they would have to discontinue my treatment.  I kept a strong face when he told me this devasting news.  I had previously spoken to the doctor before being taken to the chemo area therefore, I knew that this was detrimental to my chances of surviving.  The doctor had been clear that I needed to take care of myself because each round of chemo needed to be taken as scheduled in order for the tumor to continue to shrink.  If I missed a round, then it could affect the entire treatment plan and my possibility for survival.  As I saw the nurse walk out of the room to go speak to the doctor, my heart ached in sorrow.

I decided to take off the scarf I was wearing in my now bald head and started to pray.  I prayed to God to please make all the cool air of the room enter my body through my head.  I asked God to cool my body and lower my temperature so I could continue my chemo.   I prayed like I had never prayed before with all my heart and soul. All of a sudden, I started to feel coolness throughout my body and I hoped this was enough to stabilize my temperature.  At that moment the nurse walked in with my doctor. The doctor came over and asked how I was feeling. He told me he was going to recheck my temperature and that we might have to stop this round.  As my temperature was taken again I said internally this is the moment of truth, my doctor spoke and said your temperature is back to normal.  I will check your temperature again to make sure it is correct.  Normal again, this was the best news I could receive at this moment.  My doctor said he would take my temperature again in a few minutes to double check that I continued to be within range.  As the doctor spoke to the nurse, the nurse had a face of disbelief and shock. He told the doctor I can show you the temperature readings of why I called you.  My doctor told him, I believe you, this is the not the first time something like this happens with this patient.  Let’s check again in a few minutes and if she is okay, just continue the treatment.  Few minutes later, my temperature was still at normal body range and he looked mystified.

My cancer was not gone, far far from it, but this was a great affirmation that I was being taken care of during this battle that I had barely begun.  I chose to continue to be strong and courageous and to not let fear and doubt consume me because I knew that God was by my side, protecting me from this terrifying disease that was trying to destroy me in all aspects.  God was watching over me and providing me with protection.


  One thought on “Mysterious Change

  1. January 17, 2021 at 12:48 pm

    Wow. This testimony touches my heart in such a special way. How long ago was this?

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    • January 17, 2021 at 1:18 pm

      This was almost 16 years ago. I will celebrate my sweet 16 on the same day I decided to be baptized as an adult, March 1st.

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  2. July 26, 2022 at 8:01 am

    Reblogged this on Cancer: The Upside.

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  3. August 9, 2022 at 10:38 am

    Were you close to God before the cancer? It sounds like with all the suffering you had to endure your prayers worked wonders. How scary when the body goes out of control!! It is a great service you are doing, writing about your remarkable journey. Have you ever thought of writing a book about your experiences? It wouldn’t be that hard as you have the blog posts to use. Your story is very inspiring and helpful and spiritually enlightening. Bless you always❗💖

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    • August 9, 2022 at 9:19 pm

      Prior to my cancer diagnosis I didn’t have a relationship with God. I never “had” time, or made time for God in my daily life but during my most difficult time is when I turned to God for healing and realized that he had been there for me all along. After my cancer diagnosis I found out that I had a rare type of cancer which there isn’t much information out there about. Therefore, I decided to share my story on this blog to help out anyone else who might need it whether with cancer or anything else. I have thought of writing a book but I am not sure how to go about it or if anyone would be interested in reading it. I truly appreciate your kind words of encouragement and support. Wishing you many blessings!!🙏❤🤗

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      • August 9, 2022 at 10:26 pm

        I’ll write tomorrow. It was 96 today and I have a migraine and nausea. Not like your pain but enough to call a halt to activity. I want to talk to you about a book. Good night! Or good day depending on where you are.🙏🏽❣️

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      • August 9, 2022 at 11:22 pm

        I’m so sorry for the horrible migraine. Please know that you are in my prayers. May tomorrow be a better day. God bless you always 🙏🙏🙏

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      • August 10, 2022 at 2:14 pm

        Kelly, dear, I don’t know if this is something you want to do with the amount of pain you suffer each day or even just some days. It is an undertaking. I did it before my migraines were really bad. First of all, most of your work is done already. You could just string together your posts with some additional writing and work. Yes, people would be interested in reading it to the extent that anyone reads books today in this day and age. I published my book on Kindle only to save money. I am sorry I didn’t publish it in paper form. I took a parttime leave of absence when my mother died and did it in 6 months. I wish I had had more time. My husband edited the book. It was a work of love meant to help other people like me. You can see it on My blog has the info. Here is the info about publishing on Amazon…

        I also hired someone to process the book because that was beyond my capacity. It worked out fine though I would change the title now if I were doing it over again. Or publishing it as a physical book. If can afford to, you can hire someone to help you do the whole thing from start to finish, including editing. Just Google “how to publish a book on Amazon.” There are many companies that will do this.

        I had written and submitted to many publishers, but none accepted the book. I am assuming you are in the U.S. but I think this can be done from anywhere.

        You definitely do have a story to tell and the spiritual I find as inspiring as everything else if not more so. If you have any questions at all, please feel free to ask me. I would find your book totally inspirational. And I think others would, too. Look at the reactions to your blog. Something to think about. With 💖and 🙏, ellen

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      • August 10, 2022 at 9:44 pm

        Hi Ellen oh my goodness thank you so much for all your great advice. Today was a very hectic day and I am very tired. I just wanted to thank for all your support and encouragement. I’m going to rest now but I will reply to your messages tomorrow. Hope you had a better day today with the heat and your migrane headaches. Oh and yes I’m in the US. Good night and God bless you always. Talk tomorrow my eyes are literally closing. Hope I made sense. 🙏🙏♥️🙏

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  4. August 10, 2022 at 1:34 pm

    Thank you but I am sorry for your pain– will speak to that in a later comment in answer to something you wrote. New York City is horrid in extended heat waves. Where are you? I think we have a time difference between us. Thank you so much for the prayers💖❗ I keep you in mind in mine, too. May God bless YOU!!!💖🙏🙏🙏


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    • August 10, 2022 at 2:21 pm

      Kelly, I don’t know why the link is not showing up on the blog. Please erase all these. So sorry!!! Google “publishing a book on Amazon Kindle” and see what you can find. I am so sorry!!

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      • August 11, 2022 at 9:41 am

        Hi Ellen I’m not sure why sometimes WordPress acts funny. Just the other day another fellow blogger and dear friend of mine commented to me that she was having a difficult time leaving a comment to my post. This is particularly odd since we both comment on each other post frequently. And I haven’t found a reason why that happened to her. Now with your comment being unable to post a link. I wonder if something with WordPress in general. I have no idea. Technology sometimes works against us. Please don’t worry and thank you for all your help.

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