Endure Ruthless Pain

This aggressive fast-growing cancer presented itself with cold-like symptoms, but this was only the beginning of what was to come.  As the tumor grew bigger, it began to affect my breathing which required me to be placed on oxygen.  Hereafter, it felt like the tumor was hammering me internally.  It was as if I had become a boxer and was being repeatedly punched in the same area over and over again.  An excoriating pain consumed my chest, back and left side of my body.  I had never experienced this high level of pain in my entire life before. 

One particular evening, the pain was intolerable that I asked the nurse for medication to help me subside this agony.  The on-call doctor came in my room, checked my chart, checked my IV machine and asked me how I was feeling. I told her about my pain levels and how the tumor felt like it was hitting against my back.  She explained to me that I was already on morphine and that I was at the max level therefore, she could not administer anymore medication.  Internally I thought this was mind blowing news, I was already being administered the max level of pain medication? What!? But I can’t feel any sense of relief at all! It was like I was losing the boxing match and there was no referee there to stop the beating.  In an effort to lose focus on my pain, I decided to try to make myself fall asleep.  Eventually, with all the medications, I was able to fall and stay asleep and overcome this agonizing, excruciating, unbearable pain.

Pain continued to be a constant throughout my cancer battle consequently, I developed a higher pain threshold.  Before having cancer, I had never really endured pain, just your usual bumps and bruises from being active in different sports.  I learned early on in my cancer battle that if I felt like the pain was beyond a certain level then I would try to sleep it off.  In all honesty, I slept for much of my cancer battle for different reasons.  To prevent side effects from exhausting my mind and body, to endure insufferable pain and as a result of the medication being administered these are a few of the many reasons why I became “sleeping beauty”.

Up to today, I continue to experience pain.  It is the gift that keeps on giving.  Nowadays, I am more resilient in regards to pain. I have learned how to cope and live my life with pain daily.  I have also learned how to manage my pain. I have done extensive research on pain management.  As a result, I have bought many pain management tools. Portable body massagers,supplements, and the addition of turmeric among other spices to food that are linked to naturally helping reduce pain.  I also found that using an acupuncture style mat and pillow to lie on actually aids tremendously in alleviating my pain naturally.

Now a day, life may be a pain in the rear that is constantly hammering us down. No matter what type of pain you are experiencing in your life at this moment just remember life is too precious to be consumed with anger, agony and grief.  Learn how to lower your pain naturally to live a better happier more fulfilling life. We only live once, live your best life now while we are still alive.


  One thought on “Endure Ruthless Pain

  1. January 17, 2021 at 12:50 pm

    You have a beautiful, encouraging spirit. I’m so glad you started this blog 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

    • January 17, 2021 at 1:19 pm

      Thank you for your kind words. I felt in my heart to share my story now.

      Liked by 2 people

      • January 18, 2021 at 6:25 pm

        You are truly welcome! I know God will bless you as you are making it available for the blessing of others!

        Liked by 1 person

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